I got this message in my fortune cookie a few weeks ago, and at the time, I couldn’t get over how appropriate the timing was for me. Well it’s been a few weeks now, and that little message is still what is getting me through. I have to constantly remind myself that though this is hard, it will get better. I have to remind myself over and over, not to give up. Giving up is easy for me, and I hate that about myself. I’m not giving up. I can’t give up. But this is really, really hard. What am I talking about you ask?
Well a couple of days before Christmas, Nathan and I got an early Christmas present:
And it is certainly a gift! Just not one that I thought would make me so incredibly sick! Seriously. Since right around Christmas, I’ve felt more sick than I ever have in my life. While I’ve only thrown up a handful of times, it’s the 24/7 nausea that’s getting to me. It’s debilitating. Literally. I think this was like the fifth weekend in a row where I have done pretty much nothing but lay on the couch, sleep, and complain about how sick I feel. It’s depressing because I just want to be excited, but I can’t get too excited or I might get sick….you know, from all of the excitement:)
Anyway, I’m trying to stay optimistic and do as Nathan encourages which is to “keep my eyes on the prize.” I know that in a few short weeks time, this will all be worth it. I’ll feel better. I’ll have my energy back. And I’ll be anxiously awaiting the arrival of our first baby! Well I already am doing that last thing; it will just be nice when I’ll be able to concentrate more on that and less on this overwhelming feeling of nausea.
I’m really looking forward to the fun parts of pregnancy! I’ve heard and read that the second trimester is where the party is at, so I’m hoping these next three weeks fly by and land me quickly on Easy Street.
Despite all the ickiness, it really was a fantastic Christmas gift and I can’t wait until September!
I’m so excited for you! Hope you feel better soon
Aw, thank you!! I hope I do as well:)
YAAAAY! I swear, as impossible as it seems to you right now, that magical second trimester starts and you WON’T FEEL SICK! Until then, mucho empathy and sympathy is being sent your way. Congrats, congrats, congrats! And how convenient that you’re a photographer – you’ll have your very own little subject 24/7
P.S. Can you add me to the babysitting rotation?
Yes, I’m more than a little excited at the thought of having a 24/7 muse living in my house:) And I have a feeling we’ll take all the babysitters we can! Though I’ve never babysat for you, so that seems a little unfair!
I’m soooooo SUPER excited for you guys! Glad the cat’s finally out of the bag
Thanks! It was definitely the hardest secret I’ve ever kept!
OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!! You know, when you posted with a title “Head full of doubt” a little while ago, I had a sort of feeling in the back of my mind. For some reason, there’s a special sort of blog language I’m learning to read among ladies of a certain married age…:)
I am BEYOND excited and amazed for you. I really can’t believe it! Good grief. I just want to jump up and down….and now I get why being so sick is making you depressed.
So, I’m sending you happy thoughts. And I just want to say that your baby is going to be a very lucky little person with you as a mama.
Congrats dear friend!
xoxo
Thank you so much; you are so sweet! And I know exactly what you mean about married women of a certain age;) I’m always watching out for any little signs!
Yay!! Now I can tell everyone. Haha! So excited for you guys.
I hope you feel better soon. 
congrats again! btw, I’ll be in town april 6 – 10th. Just bought my tickets. 
Woohoo! Can’t wait!!
YAY!!! Congrats again to you and Nathan! Such a wonderful post! I CANNOT wait (but will wait at least until the end of August) to meet this precious baby. Looking forward to bump pictures and hope you’re feeling better day by day.
Haha, so glad you’ll wait until at least late August:) I’m jealous that you only have to wait until early June to meet your girl! Can’t wait for that!!
I was the first to know! I was the first to know!
Congrats a hundred more times, though… I’m so, so excited for a baby whose poopy diapers I will not have to change 
AND to finally get to throw you the greatest baby shower of all time.
xo
You’re a nerd. And I can’t wait to see what this amazing shower is that you speak of!
Yay!! So excited for you guys! You are going to be so adorable pregger
I hope the morning sickness goes down. I know Ash is going through the same thing. Can’t wait to see you and your little belly!!! Dinner soon!!!! …no wonder Nathan traded in the car for a family mobile…hehe you guys just think you are soooo sneaky. i still think you two would look pretty hott in a mini van…..I can see it now 
Hey, I think we’re pretty sneaky! After all, we managed to fool you and Jess on New Year’s AND Jess’s birthday. I was pretty proud of that accomplishment!!
Wow! Big news! I can’t wait to hear the positives … all I ever hear are scary things about being pregnant
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